The people who save you

At the end of every honest reckoning, it is never a thing that saves you. Not the bread. Not the blue. Not the smell of red earth after rain or the weight of good leather or the particular silence of a forest at dawn. Those things restore you, yes. They return you to...

The color of enough

There is a shade of blue that does something to me. Not a specific blue I could name or point to in a Pantone chart. It is more a quality of blue. The ocean on a calm morning before anyone else has arrived. The sky in that particular hour between late afternoon and...

The bread that cannot be rushed

Thursday evening I start the dough process. Not because I have to. Because something in me needs to. There is a particular ritual to sourdough that I have come to understand is about far more than bread. You begin with a living starter. Genuinely alive. Fed and tended...

What are you afraid of

I want to tell you something that took me an embarrassingly long time to understand. The Monday dread we talked about on Day 1 is not really about Monday. The hollow feeling on the audit from Day 2 [what fills you]is not really about the job. The drift from Africa...

Monday morning dread

I hated Mondays once. Not just the alarm. The whole weight of it. The knowledge that the next five days were something to survive rather than live. Sunday evenings carried a particular darkness, a slow creeping dread that stole the weekend before it was even over. I...