We may differ in how awake and aware we feel every day. For some, it may be invigoration, energy, and yearning for exploration and growth. It rarely associates with regression of any form.
How awake are you? Why is it that mortality, abandonment, or strife often catalyzes awareness?
Without a clear purpose, life’s treadmill will dull your cognition. By design, repetition can do this since it becomes mindless and may even feel purposeless.
Is this where you’ll choose to be in a year? Does what you do and who you spend your time with bring you satisfaction and joy?
Others may recognize a change or ponder on your state, yet no one else can definitively know whether you are awake or not and to what extent.
We may not be able to change our situations and circumstances immediately, but only if we are awake and attuned to the environment around us will we make steps towards bettering ourselves and using the energy surrounding us.